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COLORBLIND

My body moves to the rhythm of your heartbeat.

I am dressed in white like the lies of my love to you.

Innocent, pure, tender are the colors of my feelings.

Yet your eyes turn colorblind every time you look at me.

My heart tap dances to the rhythm of your body.

It rushes, it slows down, it even skips a beat.

It makes me sick, light-headed, makes me want to faint.

But at the same time, it puts a smile on my face.

I struggle to catch my breath every time I hear your silvery voice.

Sound of your speech suffocates me, but I don't want you to shut up.

Speak those deadly words to me as I pass out in satisfaction.

Sing to me a lullaby while I'm dreaming unconscious.

Don't wake me up, my body is frozen by the look in your eyes.

Let the time stop and the ocean of your disinterest flood me.

Thought of you not knowing the truth cuts through me like a chainsaw.

I cannot stop the bloodbath, it's too late, she has taken your heart.

TOUGH LOVE

My heart is roaring like lions

protecting their young from predators.

I wonder, what is my heart trying to protect,

when there's nothing, but the pain.

I roar loud to show how mighty I am.

If you're scared, don't you dare

come closer or else you might take away

my pain, my heart; will end up dead.

Love tough, tough love, pain

means nothing but a beating heart.

You're beating yourself up,

because you think you can't love,

but the truth is,

you can

pain

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a new picture of what love is

It's not tough, it's easy, you say.

Well, my heart, stop roaring.

Don't protect what's not yours.

Let it be taken away, stolen, beaten,

killed like an evening prey.

In the morning, you're gonna beg

for new food, because the feast is over.

You've consumed tough love -

you loved tough.

I SAW A BUTTERFLY TONIGHT

A butterfly flew into the house of my heart.

I didn't even notice that the door's been opened.

It flew around like crazy and made my heart tremble.

I ignored it, but it flew right into my face.

I tried to chase it, wanting it to sit down and settle.

But it seemed to be scared, not wanting to come close.

After some time it became tired and sat down high up.

I could only observe it from the distance and admire it.

Later tonight, I rushed to look around to find it sleeping.

It was not moving, and looked like it is maybe dead.

The butterfly was still alive, and I tried again.

I waited for my copper underwing to be ready to fly.

When the time came, it spread its wings again,

Flew down close to me, I could even touch it.

But it didn't want to stay. It was injured and scared.

It made my heart ache, but I didn't want it to suffer.

It was tired from staying inside of the house.

It for sure missed the fresh air, flowers and trees.

It needed sunshine and not to be stuck inside of my heart.

So, I decided to open the door again and let it be free.

When the door was opened, it was confused, didn't fly out.

I felt sorry to see it flying around, not knowing the way.

I helped the little guy, showed him the way to where freedom is.

I felt calm and sad at the same time because I lost him.

I lost a piece of my heart, a beauty that touched my life.

But I knew, opening the door for him was the right thing to do.

Seeing him dance in the sky, enjoying his freedom, made me smile.

Even though I was broken, I smiled because I saw a butterfly tonight.